Well hey kiddies, been playing fair?
Time flies by so quickly and I've been so busy, so entries have been on the back burner of my brain.
But here I am, and i'm feeling rather randy....in a thoughtful and completely non-sexual way.
I'll keep the update about what i've been doing brief, I've been working (oooooh), reading (Four Pairs of Boots by Craig Mclachlan), drawing (inspired by Jim Lee and Adam Hughes), watching TV (CSI, X-men Evolution, Samurai Jack, South Park, Wolf's Rain), playing video games (Vagrant Story, Sonic Adventure), writing (fun, fun, fun) and playing with my super cool Ultra Liger Zero toy from America, sweet!

What's up with the world, I hear the masses say. What an unbelievable state the world is in, our 'big brother', our nuclear friendly super power of a brother is too powerful and egotistical for it's own good. I'm not gonna be a twit and say the US has no reason to attack Iraq, they have a reason....it's just not....just.
The land of freedom and justice, as America is so proud to be, is nothing more than an old ideal that they can no longer live up to. Their justice, internationally and nationally, is purely in the interests of the goverment, and their freedom is almost oppressive in comparision to so many other countries. One of the freedoms they still have, is the freedom of religious belief, and probably explains why they are so screwed up.
I hear even americans expressing how concerned they are about Bush and America, and relief from the americans who have moved here. Isn't that a hint that something is wrong?
And to think that America is spending $1 Billion a day on military......think about that for a second. In three years that would be about $1 Trillion. Can you imagine how much good they could to for the world with that much money? If they got off their high horse and used that money helping these other countries out, instead of waving their guns and military at any direction they deem 'dangerous', they would be gaining allies, rather than pissing off the citizens of whatever poor country comes under their scrutiny.
The US has to learn that you can't force people to change, you can't force people to suddenly love you and forget the fact that up until then America couldn't give a rats ass about them, or force people to even want to listen to a country that waves it's whip around and says "what I say goes".

It scares me to think such a country is THE super power.
But it scares me even more to think that in 10 years time (or roundabouts) China will be a very worthy match for america, and could probably whup its ass. If then China indeed decides to take Taiwan, and America stands by their word to protect it....what will result? A war, a nuclear war...?
Perhaps even the spark for World War 3? I don't want to sound like some melodramatic prat, but in all honesty it could be. I can see an alliance between North Korea and China at the very least. America conducts war games of the US versus China, and apparently everytime america loses, and this is against the present China. Now, I have no idea what the scenario for these war games is, but it's still pretty freaky.

The idea of countries having such destructive power is chilling, but I guess it's the price we pay for this thing called life.
The world is such a fragile place, and America isn't helping any. If they offered help and money to these middle eastern countries and were more cooperative with the rest of the world, I doubt they'd have all that much to worry about. Perhaps then they could sort out their own screwed up country.

As it is, the thought of america or anything political makes me want to be sick. The world is such a screwed up place, and I hope to travel it at least before it gets more screwed up.

Oh, and about the Columbia space shuttle thing, it's not really worth mentioning....
It's unfortunate, but it happens. Planes and Trains crash, and they are much worse.


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On a completely different note (and very happily moving away from the above garbage) I intend to make this here journal a little different. I want to make it a page with a bigger focus on my art and writing, and my interests in general.
I'll hopefully get started on it soon if I can find the time.
Anyway, too long have I spent blabbing about things in this silly journal.
I shall leave with this : I'm happy I'm a New Zealander.

Hi-ho! The new year is upon us, and I feel as if I should write a journal entry that makes people think, and gives a sort of insight into my present psyche. If you are wishing to read such an entry then I'm afraid to tell you you're out of luck, for I am unfortunately bad at both.
On my present state I can perhaps shed a bit of light however, I am good. Work is work, money is good, free time is nice, Fergus is content.

I really don't tend to think about much lately, or at least nothing deep and profound. And I dare to say that it is indeed a good thing, for thinking too much leads to unhappiness. And trying to be philosophical just ends up being unfulfilling.

Another year has passed us all by, and by the general consensus it seems to have gone pretty quick. Where are the years going? Before long I'll be into my twenties, and that excites and freaks me out at the same time.
It has been a good year, a learning year. I've learnt many things, took a bit of time, but I did in the end.
This year saw me get my first job, my learners licence (yes, which I should have gotten ages ago, but that's beside the point), my second job...and...er...other things I can't quite remember (always when I go to write an entry do I forget half the things I want to write). But all in all I've enjoyed this year. I haven't done a heap of things, but that's not necessary to have fun, I think.

I had a fairly miserable new years last year, at which I have to laugh at myself. (for I am rather mean to myself like that) The me from then would want to kick my ass for laughing, but hey, if you can't laugh then I suggest you try to. Trick yourself into it if need be, lol. If I have learnt anything this year, it is to laugh and be merry, don't let things bother you too much.

And so I entered this year not quite the happy chappy I am, but I depart and enter the new year content and pleased with it all.

My christmas was rather....not great-ish. Got a couple of Discworld books from my mum, some crazy plushie stuff from Steve (yo!) and a SNES from EB (like....wow, it's so cool o_o). Wasn't bad, but I spent the evening with all the relatives and that kind of bored the heck out of me.
Met my 2nd Cousin for the first time, he's 4 years old and very cute. Though I imagine a fair hassle to look after.
I played with him a bit and tried to keep him out of everyone's hair, and was gifted with a "I love you!" when I left, which was followed by "awwwwww" from all my aunts, LOL.

Anyway, I need to get out of here and go to work. Then off to Matt's for a bbq, whoo!
Hope everyone has a great new years eve and that the new year treats you kindly!
Till next time kiddies, take care!

P.S. I now own a Dreamcast......be scared

'Run Fergus Run!' An uplifting tale of courage, perseverance and the ability to make your dreams come true! .......actually it's just about luck......but hey, it could have those things too.

I awoke this morning from a horrible dream, more terrible than any I've had in the last week or so. I dreamt I was stuck in a room, unable to get out....and more importantly unable to see LotR : The Two Towers. Everyone in the entire world was watching it while I, the lone person in all the world was devoid of such pleasure, I frantically tried to escape, but to no avail. I had previously resigned myself to have to wait till the crowds die down until I see the movie, but this dream changed everything.
I refused to have to wait, a fiery passion burned in my eyes and I would have a pie......which I would eat....many times over! (somehow).
So when I woke this morning I resolved to see the movie today.....no matter what (it being a day off work helped considerably). As soon as I had finished breakfast I checked the Village Cinemas website.......then went back to sleep. Sleep y'see, is a funny thing. If I had the choice I'd prefer to never have to sleep (optional is fine of course), it would make going to work so much easier and give me a incredibly huge chunk of extra life to live.
But we need to sleep, and me especially. Working 10 hours a day, 5 days a week doing hard manual labour does that to you (I'll have to recount the tale of when I was in a muddy trench, digging away as the rain soaked me to the bone.
If only there had been some extremist Texan policemen, it would be a scene straight out of a movie!!!). Er...where was I..? Ah! That's right, I work bloody hard. Not a day goes by that I don't return home with a fresh set of cuts and bruises. So it's important for me to get a healthy dose of sleep. Which as you may have figured, I don't get. I end up playing games when I get home, or there's something I want to watch, or I just do nothing.
Good ol' nothing, the thing I enjoy the most.

After my brief nap I leaped and rolled out of bed, landing perfectly on my two feet. If this was an olympic sport, I would have wiped out the competition and earned myself 3 gold medals (why three? Because it was THAT good).
But not everything was all rosey, I had 35min to get changed and walk to West City. A little voice deep down inside of me (with a strangely french accent I might add) told me I couldn't do it, but also another voice told me that I could get my mum the Norah Jones CD while I was out.
So off I went with 30 minutes to go.

Here's the nail biting, gripping part of the story : I had hoped my aching sore feet wouldn't act up, but they did...only 5 minutes into my walk too. Also I happened to wear a fairly warm jumper (hey, it looked cloudy and cold-ish outside) which was a bad idea.....since it was quite warm. These things could not stop me though, I was determined to get to the cinema in time........deep down however, I was aware that the showing I was aiming for could be sold out, and I may have to hang around several hours, something I didn't especially feel like doing.
I kept note of the time as I trudged on, 20 minutes left, 10, 5....
It had just started to rain as I arrived with 2 mintues to spare (Which I was quite happy to avoid), I rushed into the cinema and got the ticket! It was not sold out!
Wonderous wonders! I was truely being smiled upon by some sort of deity, or perhaps stamping every single yellow Fire Hydrant plate I came across was my savior (they bring me good luck).

I was in a happy mood so I decided to make idle banter with the ticket tearer, until I realised I would be late.
I needn't have worried though, the commercials and trailers lasted about 30 minutes......which is..well......pretty crappy. I must say Whale Rider looks like a really good movie, and it's another kiwi movie too, sweet!
They didn't show the trailer for X2 (the sequal to X-men) unfortunately, which I was really looking forward to as I haven't seen the latest trailer they've released (which sports Nightcrawler...all gypsy-like).

Anywaayyyyyy. I watched The Two Towers (while putting up with the most irritating noises from the most irritating audience I've ever had the misfortune of being a part of) and I really, really enjoyed it. I generally find it hard to have much more of an opinion on a movie beside : it's good, it's crap, it's alllrighht. But this was a really good movie. Not the best I've ever seen, but still.
Can't wait for the next movie. I would actually prefer to watch all three movies in one go, and no, I wouldn't get bored, nor would I get fidgity.
Eowyn is perhaps one of the first female characters in anything that I've actually liked. Well, in a while anyway. I really liked Fry in Pitch Black too (hey both are played by aussie actress', weird).

I shan't say anything much about the film, lest I spoil something, but yeah, great movie.
So afterwards I came home, took off the goddamn jumper....and somewhere along the way of this entry I lost the whole melodramtic story telling thing. damn.
Oh well that's what happens when you're distracted by the prospect of some very cool things. ahahah.
Anyway, to hell with you journal entry, for too long have you chained me to your infernal computery goodness. Now I shall seek sweet salvation in the pencil and paper!

Hi-ho, it's been a while since I updated. Been busy, I'll take that as a good thing.
I so often intend to write an entry, but always find something else to do instead. And it's not that I don't enjoy writing entries, it's just when there has been a lot going on, it makes it rather daunting to try and cover it all.

Oh, and notice the new design? I like it, but the colours seem so miserable, so I'm not sure how long it will stay up (not that I have any other design in mind right now).
The character up in the corner there is Colossus, or at least an alternate version of him from the Age of Apocalypse (an amazing storyline that ran through all the x-men comics for 4 months). I haven't bothered to change the design for the art section yet, and haven't updated it with anything new either (though I shall soon, there be a fair few things I should scan). The music section is kind of updated, it's been a hassle trying to upload the buggers, so hopefully they're all working okay. Up now is a song by Stroke 9, a song by an old mod group 'Hipster Image', and a good old song by Filter to make your parents complain about the noise.


As I said before, I've been busy lately. For the last little while I've been working with my dad building a garage, re-decking an old rental place belonging to an old friends dad and just started the foundations for an entire house in Titirangi, which will provide work for me up until march. Nice and simple work mentally, but tough physical work as well.
Thankfully it's not too tough, as I'm only really an assistant, but still tough enough to bugger me (I've mostly gotten used to it now, but I still require a good rest when I get home). It's also re-adjusted my sleeping patterns for the better. No more going to bed at 2am and getting up at 12pm, nosiree, and I broke out of it rather easily too (only took me a couple of days, yeah!).

A week or so ago the scaffolding that me and my dad were on broke, and we fell 6 or 7 feet onto the hard ground.
Surprisingly (or not so) I wasn't hurt much, lots of bruises, finger nail flipped back, nothing bad. But my dad landed on his knee and twisted it, leaving him in a wee bit o' pain, but clearly not enough to convince him to go rest it (it was another hour before he decided to go home, there was all these things he wanted to finish first).
We were pretty fortunate to land were we did however, a few more feet to the left and we would have fallen on lots of old wood with nails poking out.....ouch, I don't want to think about that.

The days go fairly quickly and I'm learning a lot, so it's actually pretty good (admittedly being around my father, a longtime carpenter, makes me feel like a pansy in comparison, and thus I end up acting like a pansy, the way I move, evrything! It's insane! I'm slowly becoming more....er...manly (?) as I get used to the work we do, and how to do it properly). Though I imagine if I weren't earning any money I'd be saying something completely different. But I am earning money, and it's nice.
Normally I'd just save it, but seeing as how it's christmas I've decided to treat myself. Got my sights set on a camera (with a working flash, no less! All my previous camera's have had broken flashes, so annoying) a DVD player (Figure now is the time to get one, as there are a bunch of movies I want and I actually have the cash to get it, wow), the Gabriel Knight adventure game series (you can't beat point and click adventure games!! Y'hear!?), and a loooooottttt of comics, including all of the Age of Apocalypse story, and Jim Lee's (my favourite artist) and Fabian Nicieza's (my favourite writer) run on X-men.
I've probably forgotten a few things, but yeah. The thought of these things make me very happy.

I was having trouble getting used to the lack of freetime I was left with after work, but I think I've finally gotten used to it, and the weekends are a godsend, lol.
It actually bothers me now when I find out I won't be working the next day (like yesterday night), I want to go out into that boiling sun and work hard, makes me feel like I've acomplished something, haha. But really, I am enjoying working, and having had the last four of five days off (not needed, as the digger hadn't come to one of the jobs) has nearly driven me crazy.

I went and saw Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets a few days ago, which was definitely a good movie, but I didn't like it as much as the first. Out of the 4 books, the 2nd was my least favourite anyway, so it's no big surprise I prefer the first. More Harry Potter is good though, and I got to hear more of that yummy Oliver Wood's voice, haha.
I'd successfully managed to avoid all trailers and clips of the 2nd Harry Potter movie before I saw it, and tried my best to do the same with Lord of the Rings : The Two Towers, but unfortunately they played the trailer for it before Harry Potter, which pissed me off. But oh well, I'm sure a trailer which seems to include 50 or so different scenes won't spoil anything, no, no, it won't. Bah.

It's funny how fast time has gone these last couple of years, especially this year though. When I think back to the start of the year, it does seem like it's been a while, but when I think back to last year, it still feels so recent. Some kind of crazy time paradox?
Or just easier to remember strong emotions? Something, but it doesn't matter anymore. Been a pretty good year though, a mainly happy one (not that there's been lots of reasons to be happy, but happy is good, and thus I am) and hopefully all the following years will be happy ones too. Hope the years don't roll by too quickly though, I already have a clear image of me wearing slacks, blue button up shirt with a smiley face tie, glasses, and sitting in an office in front of a computer all day.
It'll be some years away before I settle into a job like that I imagine, but still, if it pays well I'll do it eventually.
There are too many things for me to experiance before I settle down to anything. I want to do lots of different jobs and learn lots of new things, and I figure I have at least 10 years to do so. I've kind of set a rule for myself to not get married until I'm at least 28. I'm sure it'll probably get broken (I'd be disappointed if I did break it), but I think it's a good rule for me to set anyway.

I see life as being one big adventure, and part of the adventure is to learn and experiance as much as you can, marriage and relationships limit it unless you are lucky enough to have someone that is as keen to do the same things as you, and in my case that's probably unlikely, lol. So I'm no rush to head into such things, but.....you never know.
I intend to take some night courses when I get a more stable job, which should be anytime after february next year. There are many things I want to do though, and I don't think half of them will be taught through courses, so I'll have to find other ways.
I'm not too sure why, but I keep thinking I have to have done a lot of these things before i'm 21. Some sort of goal to learn as much as I can before then, which is weird, since I would like to think I'll be learning things till the day I die.

Oh yeah, I saw a great street name today, 'San Pedro Place', Isn't that the best?
The area wasn't bad, but I still prefer my little ol' home. Anyway, I'm tripping over my own thoughts, so time to end this.